Hospital Day

I do not like this. The day before 'hospital day' is never pleasant. Catherine always asks me what we are doing tomorrow, so I try and delay answering for as long as possible. The question seems to come earlier and earlier - today she asked me as soon as we got home from nursery.

However, I can delay it no longer as it starts to get dark. Her question 'What's happening tomorrow mummy? Is it a school day?' is quickly followed by a wail of disapproval and distress as she realises it is a hospital day. She is so aware that she even notices when the hospital phones to give us her 'starvation times', so there is no way I could avoid telling her even if I thought it was right to do so.

She doesn't like the anaesthetic as it makes her feel 'wobbly' and so she worries until she has had it. She will play for a bit and then get upset because she knows it is coming. I think it is really sad that a 3-year-old should have to go through this sort of worry - I had always hoped that this was the domain of adults. However it is something we have to deal with. She cheered up a bit when she knew this was the last anaesthetic for a few weeks, but even so, I know she will be nervous all morning until the procedure at lunch time.

Please pray that the lumbar puncture and procedure goes well tomorrow. Please also pray for the other childhood cancer patients and their parents. Thank you once again.