A blank sheet

At church today we were encouraged to draw a picture of something we are anxious about. I found that I couldn't think of anything. I found this quite startling. If I was someone else looking in to my situation, I would expect an undercurrent of anxiety, but I can honestly say I am not anxious. How can I not be anxious in the situation in which we find ourselves? Have I completely lost it? Am I being totally unrealistic?

This is one of the biggest situations I have faced in my life and I couldn't even muster enough anxiety to think of something to draw! The discussion time was a bit embarrassing as I had a blank sheet of paper.

Mark sometimes jokingly says that I am like a swan, serene and calm on the surface but that my feet are paddling quickly underwater trying to keep everything afloat (probably like a lot of mothers). But my feet aren't paddling. I can only give the glory to God for this. I can only thank the people who have prayed for me, for Mark and for Catherine. I have taken so much comfort in God these past few weeks. So many positive words have been given concerning Catherine that it is difficult to become anxious. Yes, I do feel anxious when Catherine is having an unpleasant treatment or is distressed, but generally, when nothing is happening at that moment, I am at peace. I just thank God for this wonderful demonstration of His faithfulness in my life and for the peace He gives which really does pass all understanding.

Thankyou for your prayers. I want to encourage you that God hears them and is answering.